Hi everyone, and thanks for your support and advice and wisdom. Echoes, you recommended Pema Chodron to me a little while back and I checked out one of her books from the library. I haven't read it yet, but what you wrote about "Intimacy With Fear" intrigued me, and I am going to open that book. Thanks.

I will try to move as quickly as I can in therapy and on my issue but will not push it past my limit. T is very supportive of my going at my own pace. I am applying the pressure, not him.

I'm thinking back to our last session and having some issues with some things T said to me. I didn't like them and found them kind of insensitive. And not really helpful. It was not his finest moment as a T, IMO. Yes, this is me talking, the one who loves her T and thinks he is perfect (well, not really, but I like him a lot and am very appreciative of all the help he has given). This is new for me, to feel kind of put off by my T. Could I even be angry? Sigh. Here I am trying to get on with my divorce in therapy and instead I am having therapist issues. I realize now this is why I was in the doldrums post-session. Why does it take me 4 whole days to realize that? Why can't I realize it during the session when it is happening and respond immediately to it? Why do I have to react by getting depressed? I get very frustrated with myself sometimes. What does depression mean in this case? Is it just my way of telling myself that not all is right and I need to figure it out? I applied all my CBT techniques to push the doldrums away. And then I realized why I was so down.

At my next session, should I tell T how his comments made me feel last time? Should I "waste" time on those T issues? Or just ignore that and move on to try to make progress on my real issue? Therapy can be so complicated.