Open Eyes: Thank you!! I'm not going to say 'it's okay' that I've experienced this. It's not. It will leave long, lasting impressions.
However! I'm so glad to have a place here to come when I'm in that moment of trigger, as I was earlier. When not triggered, I am rational enough to realize there are all kinds of people in the world, and he's just one of the many wounded. I don't hate him. But until he's honest with me, I can't move past forgiving into forgetting. And know 'moving on' would be the best option. He's extremely manipulative and emotionally abusive.
But my parents taught me to never give up on love. So it's hard to really -know- when it's time to throw in the towel. And it's difficult not to feel as if I've failed when I do.

As for Parley!
Never, ever, ever feels guilty for reading what I write. Thank you so much for taking the time to say something!!
Writing is what keeps me going, when everything else crumbles.

One day you will see my name in print, even if you don't recognize it!