Hi, I hope that some people could help me to understand what my T means perhaps and may have some insight into why I feel like I do about it? Maybe you have experienced similar?

Today my T talked to me about doing active work with the parts of me. (Minor freak out internally when he said this). He said that I have parts of myself that are clearly acting to protect the authentic me from any more emotional hurt. He asked me if sometimes I feel like I am not myself when the "super competent part" or the "critical bully part" show up, or do I feel lost completely when the "emotional hurt child part" now begins to surface.

I DO NOT LIKE THIS TALK!!! And I told my T so. I told him I am a whole person and would prefer to talk about myself that way. Yep I got a little angry, and expressed this to him. He reassured me that he does not mean that there are different people in me, but rather different parts of myself that need to become one again.

He also began talking about how he wants me to "actively work" with these parts, in fact he asked my permission for us to begin working on this.

I don't know, I became very overwhelmed and tearful and blurted out something along the lines of......but you are asking me to give up everything that has kept me safe for soo long now, I don't know how to do this. (Typing this just now I began to cry and have body shivers, what is that?)

Has anyone experienced something similar? Can anyone help me with some suggestions please as to how or what this means on a deeper level? And how they have worked through this sort of approach?

There was so much else going on in the session today also and it has left me feeling.....actually I'm struggling to figure out what I am feeling. Maybe lots of things, and confused, scared, angry are just some of them. AAArrggggghhhhh!