My emotions i have to deal with this period of my sucked life are failed,useless,loneliness,desperation,helpless,antisocial behavior,loneliness,insecurity,negativity,depression,sadness, self esteem feelings and low confindence in my self.I think everything i am going to try or start will fail in the middle and i will give it up dissapointed and angry for the failure.

I am 27 years old and i haven't succeed nowhere in my whole life,i failed in friendships,10 years i am alone cause everyone i knew abandoned me,i failed in relationships,10 years and i haven't done yet my first relationship with a woman,i failed to every studies my parents paid for me,failed to take a degree,i have never worked nowhere so my parents calling me lazy,i have drive license but i never took our car to drive,i never gone holidays,vacation cause i was always alone,no fun,nothing at all.

What's really going on here,i have stuck so badly in a serious deadlock i can't find how to get away from this situation,this is ridiculous,i can criticize and blame my self for hours,what mistakes i did or what decisions i could take to change things and i don't.

I failed so bad,i compare what other people have done to their lives in the same age with me and i feel so stupid i wasted almost 10 whole years after finished school,of having NO LIFE,surrendered to a fate,closed in my room with a pc and nothing more,sleeping,eating,pc,music,no communication with parents enough,everyday the same routine day and lately i have hair loss but i haven't the money to make a therapy.

This life has no future,is doomed to failing everyday again and again.