I can empathize with the discomfort around "parts" work. I think feeling conflicted is part of being human, as someone mentioned when they commented about wanting to rest on the couch and wanting to get some work done. I don't like to analyze myself into parts further than that. I'm a person who may have competing desires from time to time (oooh I want to have an ice cream, but no I don't want to have to work it off later haha, which applies to more serious issues equally well) and I've found it most helpful in therapy to not use that approach.

I've found that self-awareness, understanding my motivations and coming to peace with things that trouble me and finding solutions to problems doesn't require that type of dissection or labeling as I had some prior experiences with it that gave it a negative connotation that wasn't helpful to me.

My therapist has always been willing to offer me alternatives and respect my wishes: there are many ways to look at and heal defensiveness and other coping strategies.

Hope you feel supported and in-control as you do it. The work's hard enough already.