(((( TJ )))) My T reminded me this week that the depression I'm in isn't my fault. Somehow that was comforting because I find myself blaming myself a lot lately for being depressed. I have to remember that I come by it honestly too - - my great grandmother committed suicide and my grandmother had bipolar, in and out of the hospital her whole life. For some reason, the hereditary factor makes me feel less like it's my fault too. But I forget all of this so easily and am right back in the "it's my fault, I'm just a loser who can't deal with life" trap. Ugh. Frustrating.

Hang in there. I always enjoy your posts and feel they're useful.