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Originally Posted by HazelGirl
I don't see how I deserve it. And I don't see how I am someone whom others value. I don't feel like I hold any intrinsic value. There are 7 billion people on this earth. What makes me so special? Answer: nothing. I don't deserve any of it.
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It's not a logical thing. I don't think love and value -- the human worth of a person -- is logical or can be justified in dollars and cents, or in any measurable way.
I'm sorry. I have been in this place. I don't know how one feels worthy. I know that it is happening for me slowly and it is a huge part of why I am in therapy.
I had some "aha" breakthrough moments when I reflected on someone who did love me and saw me as worthy and I cried and cried. Learning to love oneself is ... hard. We're suppose to be taught to do so as kids.
The T thinks you are worthy. Even if you don't feel you deserve it, she still does. That's something.
I'm sorry it's hard for you to take it in and internalize that.
It's even harder to accept it and not doubt it.