((((((((agony))))))) I'm sorry. I don't know what to say but I just wanted you to know that I hear your frustration, hurt and anger. It's going to be okay. Things may not change around you but you'll learn to change from the inside on how to handle it and cope with it all better.
Eventually-it does happen. Hopefully sooner than not.
It's okay to vent and cry until then-we're here to listen.