Nicole, I think your T could have helped you a whole lot more at easing into admitting you have transference feelings. I realize this is late, as you did admit it. but for a T to just bluntly ask "Do you have feelings you're not telling me" and "What are they." is too much of a hurdle.
I'm in the same place as you were. I took a lot of 400 level clinical psych courses in college and know all about Transference, but when it comes my turn to actually have it, it's all different. In my situation, I was raised by many different relatives, all of whom made it perfectly clear that they were not going to be my mother. So, anything like a motherly transference is anathema and not to be discussed, in my inner child world. I think it helps to separate yourself into your adult self and your child self. Not that it is dissociation, but as a way to save face for your adult self while you admit you have certain childlike wishes about the therapist. I hope you get through this and that your T will nurture you through it at a pace you can bear.