Thanks Perna and Pegasus, your advice is so much appreciated. Perna, I lost my mother when I was one (you mentioned you lost yours early) and then I was raised by numerous aunts and uncles families. They all made it very clear they were not my mother and don't get dependent. I told my T about that last session. But T never has asked how I feel about her, or discussed transference. So, I'm mortally afraid to bring it up first. I'm scared out of my wits she will just tell me the hard facts about dependence, just like I've heard all my life. Actually I'm one of the most independent, high achieving, persons I know, except for my inner kid who thinks she needs this T.