I'm sorry for always moaning about the same old stuff. I've been so needy it's disgusting. But I am in such a bad place again. And I don't know what to do. I don't know how long I can keep doing this. I really don't think I can last much longer. I know I'm going to end up doing something, it's just a matter of time. I feel so defeated and hopeless. I'm so tired of this life. I wish there was just a simple switch to shut me down. I'm like a broken toy that can't be fixed, should just be chucked out. There's so much more I could say, but I can't.