I'm extremely frustrated at the sheer lack of resources there are for dealing with NPD. It's always about nons talking about how horrible narcissists are. There are no resources for people who actually HAVE the disorder. I've looked and looked and I've found nothing. It seems like everyone just assumes that people with NPD never become self-aware and therefore never change.

It's maddeningly annoying to go to therapist after therapist, trying to get help for this disorder only to be told some variation of, "well since you're aware of your narcissism you can't really have the disorder." Excuse me?

That's like telling someone with depression that since they know they have depression then they don't really have it.

I'm sick of trying therapy only to run into "therapists" who refuse to do their ****ing jobs. Why do I even bother? Hahahaha, the more I look into trying to get help the more it looks like a complete waste of time.

I get it, self-awareness and NPD together is kind of a rarity but it's not out of the question entirely. I'm officially diagnosed with NPD and still I run into this issue with therapists in particular who don't really want to engage with the fact that I have the disorder AND I'm aware of it AND I actually would like some help.

Has anyone else run into this issue? If so, how did you deal with it?