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Originally Posted by SabinaS
It's great that you are able to make that connection. I think negative feelings towards our T's are hard to acknowledge but it is healthy to recognise them. You said that you felt your T would be disgusted with you because of your angry feelings, why is that? Where do you think that feeling comes from? I agree it's tough. Whenever I get mad, I usually try to repair the damage by being nice next time I see him.
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I think because we had a rift several months ago. He reacted to me by telling me I had a couple of choices regarding my life and it was like said out of frustration. At least, I perceived it that way. I did confront him about it during the following session and he apologized. I just find it hard to trust him anyway and that made it worse. I always worry he really hates me and that he has negative countertransference. He did apologize though....many weeks later he told me that he had worked through it. In a roundabout way. But I'm not sure I believe him...he is a very compassionate person and I think he cares. I also think I'm annoying, difficult and just messed up all around. I know me and my situation blows so I feel like I can't expect much more than this....it just sucks.