I understand the hesitancy about going to an appointment. I have a close friend who is a psychiatrist. Before I went to an appointment, I talked with him for a couple of hours about getting help, concluded that he should be the prescribing MD, then mulled it over, faced the anxieties, and saw a different MD that I didn't know...sure, it was rough, but the outcome was better than the alternative in that, for a while there, I got well. Though I'm in a bit of a depressive haze now, I would not hesitate to drive a bit for an appointment, particularly if there is some relief possible. I wish you well in your endeavor.