My name is Nolafeline. I have been diagnosed with major depressive disorder and anxiety. I have been like this almost all of my life. The last time I felt somewhat lively was November 2013.
Up until January 2014, I was taking SSRIs. You name the SSRI, I probably took it. Because I stopped responding to the SSRIs, I was switched to a MAOI, Parnate. I am taking Parnate, small dose of Ritalin and in the evening Lithium.
I still feel I am in extreme pain. I hurt everyday. I want to cry, but the tears won't come. I can actually feel my heart and soul ache.
I do everything my counselor suggests. Exercise, go outside everyday, etc. It takes everything I have but I do it. And I still am in a lot of pain.
If I had it my way I would lay on the couch all day long and do nothing.
Why can't I just feel well and be somewhat normal. I want to be able to smile again. I feel so broken.
Is there anyone feeling the same way right now? Please let me know I am not alone.

Nolafeline