Oh boy can I relate to some of that. Been suffering with depression since childhood… and it’s what encouraged me to read Psychology as my degree of choice. Probably one of my worse moves as it made me so bloody cynical and analytical to what others said during my late teens and most of my 20’s. I do remember once in a lecture, the proff asked us to look to our left… now look to the right… statistically one of you is doing this course because you have mental health issues.

Pretty much stuck two fingers up at the mental health profession up until recent years, and my degree was a waste, hated with a passion psychology as a whole… had no idea what was really wrong with me and was frustrated as hell by the conflicting, adhoc and contradictory care I had received.

Part of my mind also is concentrating on what a councillor is saying… mulling it over and attributing it to my own understanding of psychology.

The T I’m seeing now had a chat about it and I had asked quite early on, if she would qualify her remarks, that throwing some stuff at me such as ‘I want to do some work on disassociation with you’ will freak me out if you say that at the end of a session and out of the blue (with no mention of disassociation before) and then leave me hanging for 2 weeks.

I do think we can be our biggest critics and some of us over analyse our issues… and harshly berate ourselves.

I acknowledge now that I really need help.. and I’m trying to roll with it.