Right now, I'm scared and feeling a lot of anxiety.
My husband is in California on a family emergency. His younger sister has been fighting leukemia and has developed a lot of complications. She is currently in the hospital after having a seizure and things are not looking very good right now and my husband is down there to help out how he can. Of course I am worried about my husband. He lost his mother to cancer almost 9 years ago, his father is in poor health and his sister is at death's door. My husband is, very understandably, very upset.
As for myself, I met his sister only a couple times before we were married over 12 years ago and we have never chatted or had a relationship. But I'm still worried about her. She's 35 and dying. She has 3 kids ages 7, 12 and 17. It just is a terrible situation that isn't fair.
I've been dealing with an acute bout of anxiety and depression recently and ended up quitting my job because the stress was too much. I wish there was something I could do (that doesn't involve flying to CA because I have a flying phobia) that would help.
I just feel helpless and useless and I can't control my own feelings of fear and anxiety to focus on helping my husband through his pain.
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