i took myself to hospital yesterday because i am just spinning out. nobody understands what is happening, because nobody can see inside my head, and i can't explain what's in my head. anyway, because i assured them i would not self-harm and i'm not suicidal, they gave me 4 hours leave today, so i'm at home for a bit. i have email on my phone now, but i doubt very much that anyone wants to keep in contact with me while i'm away, so i am not gonna bother putting it here. ciao.