It's the only number I knew to call secret... Samaritans are useless to me (I know that's harsh.. Just pointless for me to call them). Tried Focussline.. Number I've been told to call... And I get told that.

Hung up and just laughed... So sick, tired and angry. Wife is on another room and I don't want to wake her... I don't want to be a needy piece of ****.. Just climbing the wall here and I have 2 choices... Just man up and get on with it or try desperately to sleep.

****!