I was diagnosed 3 years ago, at the age of 20, the spring semester of my sophomore year of college. Before that I had been diagnosed with adjustment disorder and then with MDD, but the treatment wasn't working (which all makes sense now, since my Dx).

Even though I knew my diagnosis was coming, I was still in shock when I got it, and it took me awhile to actually accept it, even though I knew that it was right.

It takes time to adjust, especially because there is such horrible stigma about bipolar, and mental health illnesses in general, and I think part of why it's hard to accept is that you don't want to be labeled as "crazy" or associated with the extremes.

Be kind to yourself, and know that you will be able to accept it. Just not right now, and that's okay.