This is a good topic, and you don't sound like you're rambling, you make perfect sense to me. I have often seem people who were in similar situations as I was in, or had been, and seem to go right through it, while I was falling apart and lucky to even get my hair combed. I was so jealous because, even though I knew that they had their bad days also, they get it done, and figure things out, and move on. I would get floored so easily, fly off the handle at the drop of a hat, and totally sink. Of course, now that I know that I have bipolar, it does make more sense.