Melle, You know reading your post reminds me off when I first entered treatment, ok I'm not saying your an alcoholic, but I told the counsellor in the treatment centre that I didn't feel I deserved to be there. I remember looking out onto the garden of the centre where other clients/patients were mingling and I remember thinking "Oh if only I had something people could see".

Anyways my point is 5yrs down the road I now know I did derserve help and I did need some kind of support. You know we spend our lifes in our lifes and our life becomes "normal" "known" .

I'd go with your feelings, you are feeling like you need to reach out, that everything in the garden isn't rosy. I think thats a good start and from now you can only begin to learn what it is you want to correct in your life.

That talking to "her" is good! We all have "parts" even People without supposedly "Problems" have moments of that but for some its more.