I know that feeling all too well. When I was still serving I was amazing. No joke, one of the best in the business. As my mental condition progressed I was no longer super server, and constantly treated lesser than because my usefulness had faded. When I was queen of the restaurant I never got a complement, any recognition of any kind to show I was important, and I gave 100% every day. Until I couldn't. Then they couldn't get enough of pointing out every mistake, and all the things I used to be able to do that I was no longer doing. It's sad that a person can't be praised for their achievements, but will always be criticized for their faults. People are 85%more likely to complain than complement. The general masses are douchebags. Appreciate yourself, in the end it's all that matters