UGHHH. So I made a decision to move out of town "tomorrow I'm leaving".. Why am I having second thoughts? I hate this merry go round of emotions/feelings.. I'll get excited to go, thinking of all the new opportunities that await me and my son and then I get these second thoughts of "am I making the best decision", "what if", "i know i don't want to stay here but am i going to the best alternative", etc..

Why can't I just make a decision, stick with it and feel good about it? I think a driving factor in my feelings is that I've had issues staying with my sister before and I'm scared it will be another bad environment "not as bad as here" but still not "the best".. UGHHHHH.. Damn you BPD..