Think you are very courageous, to make all these changes in your life and that of your son, leaving your abusive partner, moving, these things are huge and it all sounds very traumatic! Tears are good because it means your feelings are working fine, and can be very healing in my experience! Might be an idea to look for a support group, better yet a therapist for long-term support? I had a difficult childhood too and found therapy a life saver!