i am a 20 year old guy and i am in third year of my college and staying in hostel.i am having exams on day after tomorrow and i am masturbating four times a day or not at all for the past 20 days and i am not able to overcome this addiction.i am feeling empty and if i dont pass this exam, i cant be able to get placed in any companies visiting my college and i know that i am wasting my precious parents money yet i am not able to realise this as i was feeling empty and i dont fear(worry) anything.

If i have any fear, then atleast because of fear,i will study something but i dont fear anything.i am not eating well also and i cant focus well and all i am doing was just simply watching movies in my laptop and i worry for one thing(if i dont pass, my entire future will be in risk as it will reduce my will power more than anything) and i am here now without motivation.

i want to study but i think i am very lazy.i cant be able to self motivate me.

i have overcame this situation before in my previous semesters by praying to god and sleeping thinking about my prayers to god but this doesnt work now.

I cant speak about this to my parents also.