[quote]I am an adult. I was reading in the article that it comes from such severe abuse and for me, it's been mostly severe emotional abuse with lots of superb lying, manipulation, etc and my mom told me she wish she'd smothered me as a baby and kill me that's when everything disconnected in the back of my head. I could feel it, had a nervous break down between 12-13 years old. [quote]

My mother used to tell me how many times she tried to kill me, even before I was born, so know where you are coming from! Don't give up on therapy, it took me a few tries to find the right one, too - it is more about finding someone you can really talk to and trust than anything, for example whenever I used the word 'normal' mine would say with a quirky twitch of the eyebrow 'what's normal?' I owe her a lot. take care.