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Originally Posted by Mactastic
I haven't taken the time to read the other replies yet, sorry if I'm off-base or repetitive.
I spent all of the last 2 sessions talking about my negative feelings for my T and I am so, so glad I brought it up. I had nothing but loving feelings (openly) for months and then all of a sudden I got pissy.
I think we still have some to work through but I think ALL your feelings are word exploring. My T let me wallow in my misery for one whole session and then at the last minute refuted every single one of my insecurities  . It sounds mean but he said he wanted me to really feel my emotions for one session and learn to accept them for what they are - angry feelings are no more different than love, joy, sadness, etc and all worthy of his respect.
If you could tell off your therapist in a one sentence, what might you say? Do you think you have the strength to face it? Are you worried (as in my case) he will think you're irritating and will get upset with you for even bringing up the relationship at all? I'm sorry if I'm only putting words in your mouth there... |
One sentence, huh? That's a tall order lol maybe something like, "why do you get to sit there all smug and put together, studying me like some specimen, while I bleed out in front of you and then you have the ****ing audacity to ask for even more from me????!!!???"
He has always been process oriented for the most part. He seems to believe that I cannot face my past in therapy without the trust necessary in our relationship. So he says he's ok with whatever feelings I have toward him and strongly encourages me to talk about them. I told him I want a timeframe - like how long am I allowed to express my frustrations/anger/annoyances etc.? How many sessions? I want a framework for that but he won't give it to me /:
I think I'm worried that my lack of trust is insurmountable. And what if he isn't trustworthy? What if he is, and I'm ****ing this whole thing up?