I like being alone
I like doing stuff alone
I like being in my room
I like eating alone
I like spending time on internet.
I like my internet folks (because they are better than the one around me in the reality)

So please just leave me alone. I don't have friend. The only friend I got is my ex-boyfriend. I hate 95% of the people in the church. I don't like to be part of some kind of group. I don't want to do every exercise or program that church is suggesting. Because no matter what kind of program it is, it's just going to make me more depressed. I like being alone by myself. If I were to hang out with people no matter what, I rather hang out with strangers than the people who I know. So just please leave me alone. I can make new friends in the future.

I wish I could just say this to front of my mom... which is like impossible.