I also love music, play piano, my son plays the guitar. i get triggered sometimes when i'm not in the mood for a love song or even in the mood for a happy song. please listen to your music, i always wanted to be a music therapist, they do exist, but it takes about 8 years to get a degree in it. I actually studied piano since i was 11 and am 53 now. i taught for 3 years out of my home too. i just can't get enough music!!!