Hi agony007!

Oh, I hear you.....somedays I feel exactly the same.

Wondering when my mood will settle. Wondering if/when I can move forward or see a change in the wind. And yes, feeling guilt, anger, confusion.

In Oct 06 I fell into a severe depression. At Christmas I was dx as Bipolar II. I know how you feel, truly. I just couldnt get a grip on anything...and no-one understood what I was going through on a daily basis. Each morning opening my eyes and knowing right away where my mood was...oh God here we go again.

Following the last depression, I was left with cognitive impairments. This frustates & angers me because these skills were my strongest & I cannot access them unless I am stable. I feel like a helpless child: I have had to learn to ask for help or say "would you repeat that, I don't understand"........

Do you go for walks? This has been my salvation for 30 years. If Im feeling tense, frustrated, angry etc. I put on my headphones & head out. I walk & walk until I feel better (there have been some marathons for sure LOL)

Just removing myself from the situation for a while & walking clear my head..I embrace nature-hear the birds,,and before I know it I feel better (for a while anyway LOL)

Agony007 Please take care of your needs & yourself first, without guilt.

Stay in touch, I am here to listen and help if I can!