I have found that therapy and the feeling about therapists changes as the relationship grows. I am sure your therapist does not nor will think you are bad although I can understand your feelings as I periodically go thorugh that myself. I know it is scary but sometimes the best thing is to discuss your fears about your therapist and therapy in general directly with your therapist. I think you will be surprised at the answers you recieve.

I hope soon you will be able to put your concerns about the card behind you. Sometimes there is no right nor wrong but just what fits the relationship between the two of you.

I hope you decide to continue therapy as I would like to see you get the support you seem to want. Good luck on your decision. I am sure you will make the right one for you.