I remember the nightclub fire very well. Are you seeing any doctors or counsellors at the moment? Are you working or in school? I can imagine how isolating it is to lose your mother to such a tragic event. I find it inspiring that you have managed to survive this long without crippling depression. Strengthening your support system through family or friends or a therapist helps with the isolation, I believe. If you are just starting out to combat the depression and isolation, starting to talk about it eases things, I think -- you don't feel so alone talking to someone you trust. Also, someone you trust can be a therapist if you arent sure about friends or family.

Sorry you feel this way. Everything takes time, especially starting on a road to recovery for depression. Just expressing something on the internet is a start, I think.