I wish I could believe that. I would love to see some good in my situation - some way in which I am growing. The only thing I can think of is that I am not afraid any more. I used to be very anxious about going places, talking to people, etc. Not anymore. There's no fear left in me, replaced instead with desperation. If I come out the other side, I WILL be a better and stronger person for it. I've just got to get out, which seems impossible.

If you're listening God: ENOUGH ALREADY, you proved the point!!!