Bipolar Bear. yes I do IM, I also talk irl too. I think maybe I am battling internally with letting go of internet life and making the final step into real life. for some reason internet life frustrates me unyet I am unable to make that step into real life completely. I know there is a half way with this. Not an all or nothing B/W thing, I have a lot of personal issues with intimacy and get angry at my onw inablity to just get into life.

I know when I read some posts the feelings I experience are my own frustrations and fears. I've been online for 4yrs now funny enought I made a real good friend from the other side of the world online who is actully coming to stay with me in 5weeks time for the 2nd time. I know when shes here in flesh and blood I loose all my "need" for online support.

Maybe I hate the fact I still need online support and that angers me! I think that is alot to do with it.

with time I will work through this and what is meant to be will be.