Thank you for the messages... so sorry. All the emotion has been burnt out of me... just exhausted right now.

Spoke to someone on the phone... ended up crying and all that **** I don't like doing... but it got it all out. They listened and told me to call if the urges came on, that I should call and that they were sorry about the response I got last night.

Right now, just tired... not at risk I don't think and able to think again.

bleh... not my finest hour as they say.