Hi ToeJam, opening up about how you felt......crying...........and "all that ****"............I'd say that was one of your finest hours!!!
It can take real strength and courage to express, own and face how you're feeling. So real kudos to you, honestly!!!
And yes, absolutely don't feel ashamed, embarrassed (or any of those other feelings you have but shouldn't be feeling!! ) to phone again if the urges come on.
And now you deserve a bit of a rest, you've got to be feeling completely drained/emotionally wrung out.
But THANKYOU for the up-date.
Alison