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Old Jul 09, 2003, 06:42 AM
hedgehog hedgehog is offline
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Member Since: Apr 2003
Location: Germany
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I'm female, 25, college student, and might have social phobia. A lot of times I'd really love to be with other people, but I'm so shy that I never make even a few new acquaintances - I talk to people while in school (I always prefer it to be only one person, though; I don't like groups of people), but they never call me outside of school, and I'm sick of running after them. Also, a lot of times I don't even feel like going out, I'd rather just stay home all day. But I do get lonely ... and now my best friend of almost 3 years, with whom I spent at least 2 or 3 hours daily online (she doesn't live close) has a boyfriend, and she doesn't have like any time for me anymore. We used to be really really close, and now she doesn't want to talk about anything emotional anymore; she's totally blocking things, all we ever talk about is her boyfriend and her problems with him and her dieting. Once, I told her I'd love to have some feedback from her because I wrote her a lot of emails and never got any reply, and she said she didn't know what to say, that that was life ... Every day, I'm losing more of her and I just can't cope with it, I feel really lonely and can't talk to anyone, I still cry every week (sometimes more, sometimes less), and it's been 4 months now. It hurts so badly; I just want to go back to what life was like before I met her, because I was fine then, even without friends. She was the only friend who ever understood me, and for whom I didn't have to put on an act, and now I'm all alone again, and no one understands ... She said she still loved me and that I'd always be her best friend, but it's just not the same anymore; she doesn't even miss me anymore if we don't talk ... What can I do? Also, does anyone have any advice on how I can learn to appreciate going out more? I only ever enjoyed going out with my friend; if I can't go with her, I'd rather go with no one else ... and also I love to stay at home a lot.