I think I finally found the right medicine after 7 years of hell, but I am terrified that everything will just fall apart again. Of course I have said in the past that I am doing better but this time I feel totally different like it is who I really am. My husband even said that this was girl I used to know. I'm afraid I am going to let him down, and ruin this great feeling I am having. I'm on intermittent FMLA and miss work all of the time, and I feel like a loser because I just can't seem to get to work and get thru the day like everyone else. I hate to compare myself to others but sometimes I feel like I haven't accepted the fact that I am sick. I go over all of this stuff everyday and I don't know what to do. I'm just so scared about the meds not working and falling apart.

BP 1-mixed episodes/OCD

Lamictal 400mg
Haldol 4mg
Klonopin 1.5mg