But what if being here and posting is part of what is assisting you in dealing with it and building new patterns and experiences for you? You really do seem to get a lot out of writing things up mouse - I seem to see you gaining insights as you write.

I also agree that internet life is a little undersatisfying. Something is just missing without the face to face interactions. Too much anonymity I think. So you can't always know what's real. At the same time, it's easier to say stuff because no one knows who you are.

Have some fun with your visiting friend. I'd have a hard time waiting the 5 weeks though.