Hi ToeJam,
"I really am my own worst enemy... when in that state part of me is thinking how stupid I am and how underserving of help I am, that others are in more need than me and how dare I waste anyones time... that I give myself two choices... man up and just do it... or fight it on my own and try to exhaust myself to sleep".
From another angle :

And don't try to do it on your own either!! No-one should have to do that, and when/if nothing else we're/I'm here for you...........
Alison