Well, unfortunately the only thing we can do about the past is learn from it. Boy if I could go back to being 18 or 20 years old I would have done things so differently. You make it sound as if you were almost addicted to video games. But you seem to have your head on straight and you know you want to do bigger things in your life. That is good. Purse education, career, and positive relationships Best of wishes to you.