AWE thanks, yeah, it's nice to know you could imagine how exciting that would be for me IndestructibleGirl.

It's SO wierd, and that's thanks to living in the internet age, to have this amazingly significant therapeutic relationship and not have SEEN her in person.

So... I felt like, on one hand, what I was asking should make perfect sense, I mean, almost everyone gets to see their therapist regularly, but on the other, like I was asking so much it was like a fantasy... because of the current setup and the site restrictions and the distance, and I thought the cost would be prohibitive, but then I found out it totally wouldn't be.

In fact, it's ironic: you said seeing your current T was $450 for two hours: I found out flying round trip to see my T and staying two nights would only be like $550.

So.... well, as far as when, I thought it would be a perfect graduation gift to myself to go see her when I (hopefully!) earn my bachelor's degree, and I am on schedule to earn it at the end of next April I think.... so... I'd like to see her sooner, but.. it would be nice to know I had it to look forward to. Part of that is because she inspired me to return to college when I did... and I'd just... feel a lot of pride and happiness being able to go to her as a college graduate looking forward to the future and just... enjoying her presence and thanking her for all the help, and also though, I would just like the thought of that meeting at least to hold onto now because we're talking about losses in therapy... and I really wish I could feel closer to her at times, get a hug in person instead of a virtual one.

So... yeah, it would be like you said, like meeting this amazing mentor, mother-figure for the first time after being so inspired and nurtured from afar.... surreal and amazing to think about it.

I still remember the hugs from my first mentor/mother-figure like that, a high school counselor, and would like to have a similar sense of my current Ts presence to hold on to, you know?