i know what your porblem is. the fear that the tehrapist will think you are bad is coming from luck of self confidance and self asteem or such.
i had myself thoughts about people "do they think i am bad?" adn i must say they are hateful. i understand how you feel.
well, chill out everyhting is o.k

and if your therapist is really professional he/she is not judgmental and will know how to handle it.
if you really want to get better i suppose you will overcome somehow and try to trust your T. they are here for us to HELP us. not to judge or to threatn.