Hello Altered State.
I am sorry you are having a hard time at this time, and I hope things get better for you VERY VERY soon. Sometimes becoming a person you can and want to be meets a lot of opposition from others that dont share the same sentiments. No person ever became a good person and the person they want to be from anyone elses critique, they became great from perseverence when times get tough. Take care Altered State. Soidhonia