I have been living with diagnosed depression for over a month now, but my doctors believe it has gone undiagnosed for almost 4 years. Two things anger me about my depression. One is the fact that I have no control over how I feel. Little things that wouldn't affect other people can push me so far down an emotional ladder that it becomes almost impossible to do anything. When I reach this point, the pain and anxiety of the emotions become so unbearable that it makes me believe that suicide is the only way out. This happens on a daily basis, making life sometimes unbearable. I hat being reliant on a little blue pill to make me feel even semi-"normal".

The other thing that angers me is the people around me and how they treat me. They all "understand". Bull. They don't "understand" what I deal with on a daily basis. They think they know sadness and hard work? I hit rock bottom emotionally once or twice a day. They may get there once or twice a month. Sometimes people get mad at me when I act so upset about little things. They don't understand what those little things do to me and they never will.

I guess that the point of this post is that I want to know if other people who have depression go through this anger. I don't want professional opinions or doctor's opinions. I want a response from someone who truly knows. I don't mean to sound like a whiny child, but I just want to know that I'm truly not alone in this fight and that I can talk to people who aren't doctors.

Thank you.