That is a very apt description. 15 of the last 20 months I was in severe depression. Even the five good months I had pretty bad anxiety. It was all consuming and all I thought about. The last two months I have been doing very well on meds but it can be liking pacing the floor back and forth. And then on the other hand I want my whole life put back together right now and feel guilty. Like I will totally minimize everything I have been through the last five years and really the last twenty years like I made it all up in my head. I do have some things going on that are keeping me busy so that helps. Slow and patient I still say, but we do have to start making some steps. Are you working? Do you wanna work? Things have gotten so bad for me in recent years that I applied for SSD so I am kind of in a catch 22. Doing good doesn't help my case, but being depressed 75% of the year doesn't work out to good either.