1. Buying a bike is the best thing I've done in a while. Finally able to exercise a bit by going by bike to and from university (about 30-40 minutes a day, unless it's raining because then I go by bus).

2. I'm stressed out of my mind.

3. I had a freaking shut down and/or anxiety attack during the assessment session this week. I can't decide if it was embarrassing or good that the psychologist got to see that. Perhaps it was good since it happens quite a lot when I'm at university etc as well.

4. Two days ago I met the psychologist I'll be going to while I'm getting assessed. I'm supposed to learn how to handle stress. We talked about how I have this tendency to very often get stuck in my head, shut out the world and become withdrawn and quiet. The psychologist referred to those (the stuck in my head thing) as bubbles and she kept saying I need to find ways to get out of them by doing practical things. Things like focusing on my breathing, focusing on sounds to remind myself that there's a world outside my head, go for a walk or something. My homework for next time is to write down things I can do to get out of my head. Haven't really come up with anything yet because when I'm in one of those "bubbles" (especially if it's a really bad one) it's difficult to even get to the point where I manage to focus on the fact that I need to get out of my head.

Also, I have some sort of love-hate-relationship to being stuck in my head. I feel safe there but it also gives me tremendous anxiety a lot of the time. Except when it's a positive "bubble" (feels weird to refer to them as bubbles but I can't really explain it better than that) that is. When I read about things I find interesting for example. Then I shut out the world as well. To focus on my interests. Does that make sense?