Oh I think it is totally "normal" what you are going through. Especially with a recent diagnosis. I have been being treated for twenty years and had it since 7th grade. I didn't really know it or get a diagnosis until I was 32. I would get extremely angry about it. Why me? What did I do? I self medicated for 17 years with drugs and alcohol before I got diagnosed. Then I got clean and sober and have been ever since. I went to all the therapy, took meds, did all the AA things. Yet still have the depression. All the hard work and doing the right things and still have it. Oh yeah I have gotten really angry. I have had twenty years to work on it so I am at a place of acceptance now where it is just the hand life dealt me. It has not been easy but there is some peace in acceptance. It is a long process and anger at it is a big part of it.

You will find many people here who do understand and go through the same things. We truly understand and will not judge. People who have never had it...it is impossible for them to understand. They may try to understand and try to be helpful but most don't know how. There are some out there I have found. But we need eachother.