You've mentioned in a few posts that you can't tell your spouse that you love him. And though decreased libido is a side effect of BP meds, this is not a side effect of any medicine. You say you do love him and even had every intention of being sexual with him but didn't. What I would suggest is looking at the situation through his view. You know how you feel and what you are thinking. He only knows what you show. And it sounds like you are showing little to nothing in the way of love. I'm assuming that you take your meds every day even though you don't really feel like it. You take them because they make you feel better right?? So there is something you can do about it. If you truly love your husband you need to tell and show him every chance you get because from your mention of him in other posts, he sounds like a real keeper.